I think too much when I'm high.

From: Angela



Date: Apr 26, 2008 3:07 AM
Subject: I HATE MAKING DECISIONS
Body: because I change my mind A SECOND later.


OR I second guess myself.


OR I think too much about everything I say because
I don't want anyone to perceive what I do or say differently
than what I meant for it to mean.


Why do I even care? I care about a lot of things I shouldn't
probably care about.

I should just stop caring right now
about things that don't matter. RIGHT NOW. It feels good.


There are far more import things going on in this world than
who is doing what, who is friends with who each week,
who got in a fight with who, words always start to sound weird
after using them repetitively. Say that word.


It says tit in it. LOL.........anyways, who isn't guilty of caring
about things that are mindless? Doesn't everyone think they
think too much?

I hate how I characterize people yet I can't stop doing it.



What else do I hate about myself..this feels good..

I hate not knowing sometimes.

Not knowing how something
might turn out in accordance to your actions.



But I stopped caring a couple paragraphs ago.


Remember?

I wonder who reads my ramblings.

So it's St. Patrick's Day......what is that even for?
Like just to celebrate Irish People?
Haha, Sigure Ros and Mark are playing at the
same time cause I'm on Mark's Myspace.
Hm, anyways, he's out partying. I guess we are over?
I don't know, I guess I'll just wait to see what happens.
He thinks Ian and I did something when he was in Fla.
But nothing did...so it's like.....alksdfj he doesnt believe
anything I say, so he thinks I'm lying, but I'm really telling
the truth..he has to know that, but insists I'm lying so I
will confess something, where as there is nothing to confess.
It's a stupid thing really. I shouldn't even bother to explain.
I guess I'll go to sleep..yay, another weekend with falling asleep
early and all alone...... =[ I miss mark ]